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Haven't posted in a while... My bad.

Going to start posting on a different link.
http://www.secrets-lie.blogspot.com/

See you there.

think i'm moving

think i'm moving. well i hope i'm moving. if so, fresh start for me, get rid of facebook, skype, get a new number. everything. i am sick of it here at the moment, and my 'family' want to move. so i guess i will be moving soon. i want to go somewhere far ways, then no one will know anything about me, so i can be me. and not who you want me to be. dick.

GoodNightStranger :)

So, half term is over. It sucks! I should of done some work over the half term, but I didn't. So now, I have to rush all my course work, joy. But my half term was actually really good :) I went to a few parties, got drunk. I got my ears pierced. I worked. I bought my self a record player, which I am in love with. I went shopping. I had a DVD day. I went to the movies with my friends, went to see black swan! I fricking love that film! Then at the end of the half term i got tonsillitis. Yum! But yeah! All in all, it was a good half term. Roll on easter break! So, I haven't been on for a while, so I just updated you what happened all week. Oh, get this. My uncle is moving to Hong Kong for five years with his girlfriend of 6months. I am not pleased with that! I have a huge family, like really huge. But he is the only one I really class as family, and BOOM. He has ditched me like everyone always ends up doing, there for, I cried for ages. I always cry... i need to man up! lalalala.. Got sooooooooo many slag jokes today, I wounder if they will ever calm down with the jokes, I don't think they will.. Hmphhh. So, I'm going to take tomorrow of school I think? And just sleep, and 'recover' I don't know.. I talk about so right shit don't I. HA. It's rather amusing. Anyway, I will leave you to sleep, GoodNightStranger :)

but yeah!!

i'm feeling better today, i just have my random days i brake down on... sorry! but yeah. today... work up at 1pm... had 3 night mares last night, it sucked. i woke up, then got ready for work.. got a taxi there, and the taxi guy tried to kill me! he was driving on the wrong side of the road! ok, it might be the right side of the road in his country! but not here! it gave me a heart attack! anyway, got to work in one piece! but then i left cos i still felt ill... so, got home, got in the bath.. fell asleep in the bath, nearly drowned... so today has been fun? really excited about the sweden exchange!! ekkkk!! get my report tomorrow -.- its not a good one! so if i don't blog anymore... its because my mum has killed me... ahh well.. oh, i met a guy.. he seems nice, but they always do at first.. i will see how it goes, and let you know! good night :)

168hours a week

Emotional wreck! thats what i am! i cant stop crying! everything is getting to me! its getting too much to handle.. i want a holiday where i can relax and forget about everything! 3jobs...31 hours a week .. 6hours a day at college, so thats 35 hours at college... sleeping each night will be about 49 hours, getting ready each morning takes me an hour, so thats 7 hours, cooking/eating tea, 14 hours, cleaning, about 10 hours, going to the hospital and doctors will take me to about 12 hours... so thats 158 hours..  168hours are in a week. i only have 10 hours a week for me. and them hours are spent on my family, on my friends or prepping for work or school.. its too much. i cant deal with it. i want to go to sleep now.

enrichment day.. yay....?

hi kids.

we had an enrichment day today.. if you don't know what that is, its basically teach you about life. so, we had a day of sex education, alcohol, drug and solvent abuse and dangerous driving.. fun right? so my first lesson was alcohol abuse.. and in that class we learnt what to do if some one who is drunk passes out and becomes unconscious, so we did CPR and the recovery position. I already knew this. then we did sex ed, where we looked and photos of STI's, and I knew what they all where... then we put a condom on a plastic penis. I was the only one in my group who did this, since one of them wouldn't touch the condom because of the lube, one of them is a raging Christian who wont be having sex with anyone any time soon.. so doesn't need to know how to put a condom on, and then the other, well, she wont be getting laid any time soon, and she got embarrassed by it all, so didn't bother. so there I was, with a blind fold on putting condoms on. I'm a pro. I also to a chlamydia and gonorrhoea test! I'm pretty sure I wont be positive, but I get the results later this week! then I had the solvent abuse class, but I learnt all that in year 6.. so that was like a reminder of not to sniff glue... then I had drug abuse, which wasn't to bad, a ex addict came in and told us his story, then we had the driving safety, which was ok.did you know 9 young drivers a day die in the UK cos of car crashes. how bad is that...

I find out about the Sweden exchange, get my STI results back, got a few parties and a date coming up this week! bring it on!

thanks for being the last people to talk to before I go to bed! Good night :)

me + photo shop = ...

This is what happens when you leave me and photo shop together...

How do I say goodbye to some one I never really had? Why do my tears fall so endlessly for some one who was never really mine? Why do I miss some one who I was never really with? And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?