but yeah!!

i'm feeling better today, i just have my random days i brake down on... sorry! but yeah. today... work up at 1pm... had 3 night mares last night, it sucked. i woke up, then got ready for work.. got a taxi there, and the taxi guy tried to kill me! he was driving on the wrong side of the road! ok, it might be the right side of the road in his country! but not here! it gave me a heart attack! anyway, got to work in one piece! but then i left cos i still felt ill... so, got home, got in the bath.. fell asleep in the bath, nearly drowned... so today has been fun? really excited about the sweden exchange!! ekkkk!! get my report tomorrow -.- its not a good one! so if i don't blog anymore... its because my mum has killed me... ahh well.. oh, i met a guy.. he seems nice, but they always do at first.. i will see how it goes, and let you know! good night :)

168hours a week

Emotional wreck! thats what i am! i cant stop crying! everything is getting to me! its getting too much to handle.. i want a holiday where i can relax and forget about everything! 3jobs...31 hours a week .. 6hours a day at college, so thats 35 hours at college... sleeping each night will be about 49 hours, getting ready each morning takes me an hour, so thats 7 hours, cooking/eating tea, 14 hours, cleaning, about 10 hours, going to the hospital and doctors will take me to about 12 hours... so thats 158 hours..  168hours are in a week. i only have 10 hours a week for me. and them hours are spent on my family, on my friends or prepping for work or school.. its too much. i cant deal with it. i want to go to sleep now.

enrichment day.. yay....?

hi kids.

we had an enrichment day today.. if you don't know what that is, its basically teach you about life. so, we had a day of sex education, alcohol, drug and solvent abuse and dangerous driving.. fun right? so my first lesson was alcohol abuse.. and in that class we learnt what to do if some one who is drunk passes out and becomes unconscious, so we did CPR and the recovery position. I already knew this. then we did sex ed, where we looked and photos of STI's, and I knew what they all where... then we put a condom on a plastic penis. I was the only one in my group who did this, since one of them wouldn't touch the condom because of the lube, one of them is a raging Christian who wont be having sex with anyone any time soon.. so doesn't need to know how to put a condom on, and then the other, well, she wont be getting laid any time soon, and she got embarrassed by it all, so didn't bother. so there I was, with a blind fold on putting condoms on. I'm a pro. I also to a chlamydia and gonorrhoea test! I'm pretty sure I wont be positive, but I get the results later this week! then I had the solvent abuse class, but I learnt all that in year 6.. so that was like a reminder of not to sniff glue... then I had drug abuse, which wasn't to bad, a ex addict came in and told us his story, then we had the driving safety, which was ok.did you know 9 young drivers a day die in the UK cos of car crashes. how bad is that...

I find out about the Sweden exchange, get my STI results back, got a few parties and a date coming up this week! bring it on!

thanks for being the last people to talk to before I go to bed! Good night :)

me + photo shop = ...

This is what happens when you leave me and photo shop together...

How do I say goodbye to some one I never really had? Why do my tears fall so endlessly for some one who was never really mine? Why do I miss some one who I was never really with? And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine?

Bonjour Bloggerr.

Bonjour Blooggerrr.

Hi. How are you? How have you been? I know I don’t come on here often, I will though, promise? 

Anyway... you know when you are sitting on the sofa, and the TV is on, and the remote is on the other side of the room, on the other sofa and you just can’t be arsed getting up and walking over to get the remote, so you just watch what’s on TV? Yeah? Well, I was doing that. And there was a documentary on about internet dating. It was quite funny to be fair, but these lasses, where dead set on dating sites on the internet. I don’t think I could go on one of them internet dating thingy mobobbys! These girls went on dates with these randomers on the internet, and when they got to the date, these lads looked nothing like they did in the display photo. My god. And the lasses go on 3-4 dates a week with these internet lads, different lads each time. As if. Then if they really liked them some of the lads, they started talking about how they would facebook stalk them, and this one girl managed to get a lads address off of facebook and Google map his house! How crazy! Or is it just me who thinks that?! But yeah.. crazy..

I kind of miss blogging. I get to do it with a glass of wine (well, I’m not drinking a glass of wine, I’m drinking beer, but wine makes me sound that little more girlish?) I get to do it in bed, the laptop heat keeps me warm, and I probably don’t know anyone who reads this, so I can blog about anything, and it won’t affect my actual life. Simples.

Byebye blogger.

like in a blender?

so... it seems I only really come on here now, when I'm pissed off and don't want to talk to my mates.. wow. so yeah. I got a new job? at my school, its pretty cool, I just have to help a bunch of kids speak English.. it would be easier if I spoke Arabic, but hey, its more fun this way...  got more drugs off of the doctor. fun times, fun times. this weekend I have worked 21 hours. I feel deadddd. I don't feel to good, but I think its just cos I haven't slept for a while.. went out last night.. got drunk.. regret it. oh the joys of alcohol. so yeah. planed my life out.. pass college, finish college, go to uni, pass uni, leave uni, move to America or Australia. sounds good, right? but its a lot of time, effort and money.. which I don't have. so, I'm just going to wing it. I need to take my room apart... I finished my book! Grrrr. I hate it when I finish them, cos I have to buy the next one, what isn't even out yet. and I don't like reading other series of books mixed in with a different series. I'm sad right? I don't care.. this blog is a bit mixed up? like in a blender? ohh well, it makes sense to me! hair cut Thursday, I hate having my hair cut, I spent so long growing it, and then with one snip, its gone. anywho, I'm off to bed, cos I am tired! Night y'all.

watch out!

Im not used to not getting what i want. fmlll! anywhos. i planed my life out today, im not staying in England, its sucks here. the government have basically screwed us for all what we are worth! so America or Australia! watch out.. i will be over there in 4years! as soon as i get my adult nursing degree :D i have family in both places so it should be fine :D kinda looking forward to moving out of England.. fresh start and what not, i'm still not in a better mood than last week.. im just trying to get my self planned out, dont have time to be sad. damndamndamndamn. i kinda like this guy? but its not going to work? so theres no point in telling him? my ex is coming over from uni for a weekend, and wants to go some where for the weekend? and thy guy i have been seeing is no longer. valentines day is soon... joy.