Urghh. Ceebs with it all.

So, I have spent about an hour listing to really upsetting music. Just thinking. I hate it. I was in a good mood a few hours ago, and now I don't want to go to bed upset. I don't even know what I'm upset about? For fuck sake. I guess its just every thing at the moment, I'm kind of scared of these blood tests coming back, my family are always arguing, and everything else. Urgh. Some times I just cant be bothered, I don't even have anyone to talk to about it all. no one will understand, and then treat me different, cos they don't want to upset me. Feck :/