it doesn't make you a good person to pity fuck the sick girl

sorry about yesterday. i was in a suckish mood. still am i guess, but i will get over it.. i have to. i went to see a film today 'Love and Other Drugs' i really liked it, it was about a girl who is medically ill, and she falls in love with a guy who would do anything for her, well, that's the main point, there's a lot of sex in it... but i wont go into that. anyway, there was a like where she said 'it doesn't make you a good person to pity fuck the sick girl' and i cant get that saying out of my fucking head. what if people pity me that much they will do something to make me happy, but not them. i dont want that. but i dont know what to do about it. i cant be bothered. going back to yesterday... the people who i trust, who i thought where there for me? they have basically fucked off and left me on my own. normally i can do stuff on my own, but certain things i go through i need someone else there with me. i mean, i have my friends, but no one can help. i guess i actually do need to learn to fend for my self... fun :/